rambling:

i have so many things to do, and i don’t do any of them! but it will be fine. or else, i would react and start doing them, right? i think i’ve lost control over everything, because about a year ago i just shut my brain off, so that i wouldn’t think of things, and become depressed (because that would be bad, while being thousands of miles away from home), so now my brain isn’t working right.
crap, i don’t know where this is going.

oh, yes! i don’t mind things turning to shit, because i am incredibly happy. i think. anyway, all i wanted to say was: he has the softest lips. and: i get it now.

Friday Oct 10 @ 05:41pm